Personal Essays by Gay Dads

How This Dad 'Redesigned' the Holidays After Coming Out of the Closet

Rick Clemons describes how he made the holidays work for him and his family again after coming out of the closet

What I'm about to describe to you, is something I am deeply ashamed of in hindsight. I was a jerk, still in a state of shock and confusion, and "in love" with a handsome Brit I'd only spent less than 24 hours with.

I was standing in the Ontario, California airport watching my wife walk with my two daughters to a different gate than mine. They were headed to my parents in the Napa Valley for Thanksgiving. I was headed to spend my Thanksgiving with the Brit in San Francisco. It was less than one month after I had come out of the closet and I was so caught up in my own freedom and new life that I didn't realize until everything went kaput with the Brit on New Year's Eve, that if I was ever going to manage the holidays with dignity and respect for me, my kids, and their Mom, I was going to have to kick myself in the pants and stop acting like a kid in the candy store when it came to men. Ok, nothing wrong with acting that way since I never got to date guys in high school and college because I was raised to believe – gay no way, was the way. But that's another article all together.

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Diary of a Newly Out Gay Dad

A Newly Out Gay Dad Feels 'Demoted' After Divorce

Cameron Call showed up to his first family Thanksgiving since coming out and getting a divorce — and struggles to find himself "stuck with the singles."

Cameron Call, who came out in summer 2019, has generously agreed to chronicle his coming out journey for Gays With Kids over the next several months — the highs, lows and everything in between. Read his first article here.

Denial is an interesting thing. It's easy to think you're potentially above it, avoiding it, assume it doesn't apply to you because you'd NEVER do that, or maybe you're just simply avoiding it altogether. After finally coming out, I liked to think that I was done denying anything from now on. But unfortunately that's not the case.

And this fact became very clear to me over Thanksgiving.

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When Seattle husbands Rich and Brian found out they were going to be dads, their initial reaction was panic. "It was so early in the adoption process, we weren't really ready for anything," remembered Brian. "We hadn't read any books, we didn't have a crib, we had nothing... we were going to be dads and the baby was going to be here in a week!"

"I didn't really think about being a parent," added Rich, "and more what do we needed to do logistically, and how we were going to make it all work."

The dads adopted Emerson from birth and raising a girl has taught the dads a lot; they are her biggest advocates. The dads are making sure that they're "raising a girl who feels empowered and able to speak up, play sports, just as anyone else does."

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Change the World

10 Inspiring Coming Out Stories From Gay Dads

Happy National Coming Out Day! To celebrate, we've rounded up some of our recent stories about gay men with kids coming out to live their most authentic lives.

Happy National Coming Out Day! To celebrate, we've rounded up some of our best articles of gay dads coming out to live their authentic lives.

#1. Former NFL Player Jeff Rohrer, and Father of Two, Comes Out as Gay and Marries Longterm Partner

Jeff Rohrer, a father of two teenage boys via a previous relationship with a woman, is the first NFL player to marry another man. Read the article here.

#2. Coming Out to His Wife Was Painful, Says This Salt Lake-Based Dad of Four. But it Started Him on a Path of Authenticity

After Kyle came out to his wife, with whom he has four children, "she listened, she mourned and she loved," he said. Read the article here.

#3. Gay Dads Share Their Coming Out Stories for National Coming Out Day

We asked several gay dads to share their coming out stories in honor of National Coming Out Day, whose stories are heartwarming, instructive, and everything in between. Read the article here.

#4. Gay Muslim Single Dad Writes Op Ed on His Path to Self Acceptance

Maivon Wahid writes about the challenges of reconciling three separate, but equally important, identities in an opinion piece for Gay Star News. Read the article here.

#5. One Gay Dad's Path Towards Realizing Being Gay and Christian are Not Mutually Exclusive

Gay dads Matt and David Clark-Sally talk about coming out, parenting as gay men, and reconciling faith and sexuality. Read the article here.

#6. Republican Utah Lawmaker, and Dad of Two, Comes Out as Gay in Moving Video

Nathan Ivie has many important identities he's proud of: Mormon, Republican, Utahn, father of two... and gay. Read the article here.

#7. How Coming Out Helped This Gay Man Find the Strength to Be a Dad

Steven Kerr shares the moment he came out to his ex-girlfriend. "From that moment on," he writes, "my strength and purpose have grown." Read the article here.

#8. Ed Smart, Father of Kidnapping Victim Elizabeth Smart, Comes Out as Gay

In coming his coming out letter, Ed Smart, a Mormon, condemned the church for their "ridicule, shunning, rejection and outright humiliation" of LGBTQ individuals. Read the article here.

#9. The Best Part of Coming Out, Says This Gay Dad, Is Being an Out and Proud Role Model for His Daughter

"I couldn't face myself in the mirror and think that I could be a good dad and role model for my child when I was lying to myself every moment of every day," said Nate Wormington of his decision to come out. Read the article here.

#10. These Gay Dads Via Previous Marriages Have Adopted a Motto Since Coming Out and Finding Each Other: "United We Stand"

Vincent and Richard both had children in previous marriages with women; together, with their ex-wives, they are helping raise seven beautiful kids. Read the article here.

Gay Dad Life

Retired NFL Player Reveals He, His Husband and Ex-Wife Live and Raise Kids Together

Former Dallas Cowboys linebacker Jeff Rohrer says "we get in fights" thanks to the unique co-parenting arrangement, but that they're "doing the best we can."

Former Dallas Cowboys linebacker Jeff Rohrer, who played for the Dallas Cowboys from 1982 to 1989, came out as gay not long ago and became the first NFL player to marry another man, Joshua Ross. Jeff is a father of two teenage boys, who he had with his ex-wife, Heather Rohrer. In a recent interview with People, Jeff, Joshua and Heather discussed their unique co-parenting situation.

"It wasn't that Jeffrey came out to me, but once I figured it out, it was obvious he was gay," Heather said. "He thought it was wrong; he was so angry. He thought his children wouldn't love him, that he'd lose his job. I tried to help him. I kept trying to tell him it was okay, that it was no big deal. But it was to him."

Today, all three adults live together, along with their two children, Isabella, 16, and Dondillon, 15.

"We get in our fights, but we find a way to make up. We're just trying to do the best that we can," Joshua said.

"Jeff and Josh are my family, and we're a better team together than apart," Heather said for her part. "Being together for the kids is the important thing for us. It's been difficult to get to this place, but it's worth it."

Read the entire piece on People.

Personal Essays by Gay Dads

Why This Gay Dad Always Dreaded Parent-Teacher Conferences

With his kids well into their twenties, Jim Joseph gets nostalgic watching friends post back-to-school images of pics of their kids trick-or-treating. One thing he doesn't miss though? The dreaded parent-teacher conference.

I know that social media has gotten a lot of flak in the last couple of years, mostly because of its political tendencies and political, shall we say, drama. Sure, I'm acutely aware of that. But there's a part of social media that is still exceedingly fun and rewarding, and I've been enjoying it a lot lately.

It's been so much fun seeing all of my friends and colleagues with their families during this year's back-to-school and Halloween festivities. School uniforms, backpacks, bake sales, fundraisers, and, of course, Halloween costumes.

I'm getting the chance to relive the years when I did all of that when my kids were young (they are now well into their '20's now!). I miss it. A lot.

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We're curious about the dating habits of divorced gay dads. Here are the stories of four of them: Mark, Brian, Greg and Ed.

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With gay marriage and partnerships, it was inevitable that gay break-ups would soon occur. It was also inevitable that many of these dissolutions would involve children. Gay men are discovering a new situation, one that has plagued our heterosexual counterparts for ages: raising kids alone. Here we talk with three men who are raising children alone or mostly alone, and who never intended that to be the scenario when they had children. Sound familiar? It’s like half of our parents.

Richard, 50, is a New York freelance photographer who is raising a seven-year-old girl without his ex-partner. The couple adopted the child before gay marriage was legal in New York, but they were registered as domestic partners. Richard’s ex-partner developed a severe drug addiction and the relationship ended. After his ex gave up his legal rights, Richard obtained sole custody of the child.

“It’s not what I expected ten years ago,” he says. “We did everything right; the house in the country, the apartment in the city, the child. I had no idea that my ex had any addictions when we moved in together. He became terrifying and it had to end. And I had to take my girl.”

Richard still has the home and the same apartment, but his life as a parent has changed drastically. “I do everything myself, and I have a high-stress job. I am often shooting from four in the morning till midnight, and there used to be someone else to take care of her when I was busy.”

Richard admits that he’s lucky to have other kinds of help—a couple of baby-sitters and a wonderful mom—but it’s the personal time he misses. “I hate it when I miss seeing my daughter get ready for school. Or being with her at dinner. I’ve done my best to change my schedule and take photography jobs that are in town, but I can’t do that all the time. When I had my partner, I felt like I was always there in spirit. And I knew she had at least one parent with her.”

Then there comes dating and moving on. “I’m on a couple of gay dating sites, which I’m not crazy about, but I do not meet men anywhere else. Some of the guys freak out when I tell them about my girl because I usually only have twenty minutes to meet them before I have to race off to take care of her. I’m not going to sacrifice that time, but I also want a love life again.”

He continues: “I’ve never really been alone, and I’ll admit that I’m a relationship-oriented guy. Ever since I was about my daughter’s age, I knew I wanted to be with someone. Maybe that’s why I was blind to my ex’s addictions. And I want it again; I want to get married. But I don’t know how to find the love of my life when I spend almost every waking moment with my girl. I don’t mean to sound negative; I’m just frustrated.”

James, 49, a graphic designer, separated from his partner five years ago (they were never legally married) and has custody of their adopted son, now 14. The decision about the child’s welfare has been a non-legal agreement between the two men, and both are still legal parents. In his view, fatherhood has strict rules and a clear plan.

“Until my son’s out of high school I do not date, and I rarely socialize except for a few close friends and our relatives,” says James. “He’s in high school and a son is a fulltime job. My ex-partner and I just sold our house, I’ve moved, and now we’re already thinking about things like college.”

James lives in Manhattan Beach, about 20 minutes southwest of L.A., close to his son’s school and away from the temptations of his former home in Los Angeles proper.

“It’s easier to raise a son out here,” he says, adding, “I find that I don’t want to do ‘single’ things like getting into the dating scene. We go to the beach, we cook, we watch TV together; we’re a family. And his other dad lives nearby so he can see him whenever he wants.”

“I don’t know how any man with kids dates,” says James. “Or straight people either. I don’t want to bring a guy home with my son in the house. I’m not going to spend the night away, so what’s the point? And I can’t go out with a guy and tell him I have to be home every night by ten. So dating is off the table until my son’s off to college.”

Like all single parents, gay or straight, the unexpected challenges of raising children alone can be overwhelming at times.

“I thought my husband and I would be together forever,” says James. “I had everything planned out, just like my parents, who were together up until the day my dad died. Then one day I wake up and I realize my ex is no longer in love with me, wants to get away from me, is dating someone else, and doesn’t have a real interest in being a full-time dad. That’s life.”

Bill, 43, lives in New Jersey, and has joint custody of his 12-year-old son with his ex-husband, which is a constant tug of war. “We don’t get along,” says Bill of his ex, “and I’m a child of divorce. The last thing I want is for my son to see us fight or to think badly of either one of us, so we never argue in public, but putting on a happy face all the time can be difficult.”

He won’t go into the details of the break-up, but says he has a lot of guilt over raising a child in a world that isn’t always accepting of his own sexuality, and over the divorce as well.

“This is new to me,” says Bill, who works as an architect. “I knew my son would have to get used to having non-traditional parents, and now he has to get used to having divorced non-traditional parents. He says he’s fine with it, but I worry all the time. And my relationship with his other dad is never going to improve. When we talk and my son’s not around, we only say the bare minimum, like what time he’s picking up my son and what time he’ll be back. Fun stuff.”

“And as much as I hate to admit it, I know my son would like us to get back together. Sometimes he’ll ask if I still love his other dad, and it’s so weird. It reminds me of the things I used to say to my parents.”

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