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One Gay Dad's Path Towards Realizing Being Gay and Christian are Not Mutually Exclusive

Gay dads Matt and David Clark-Sally talk about coming out, parenting as gay men, and reconciling faith and sexuality.

Coming out in your 30s is difficult. But coming out while blending a family, parenting two kids, and reconciling faith and sexuality? Some may call that crazy.

For gay dads Matt and David Clark-Sally, that's just what they did. And they couldn't be happier!


"Having grown up in the church and more conservative circles, I was always scared to come out," says Matt. "While I wouldn't wish some of these challenges on anyone, I wouldn't change a thing. Meeting David was worth everything, and having our daughters is such a blessing."

Life looks vastly different now for Matt and David than it did 10 years ago. From coming out and living their authentic lives, to getting married and forming a blended family in Madison, Wisconsin, these dads are excited about their future.

Matt and David both grew up in evangelical churches. Early on, they learned the value of family, and both knew they wanted to be dads. Yet they struggled to reconcile the teachings of their faith with their sexuality. They didn't feel they could live authentically as gay men of faith, much less become fathers and have a family.

"I used to believe I could not live as a gay man and be loved by God," Matt shared. "And be fully accepted and affirmed by my church, my work, and my friends? No way."

Matt spent years in therapy and suppressed his sexuality. He pursued a straight marriage, which included having two beautiful daughters.

"I was blessed in many ways, at least on the outside looking in. I had great friends, a solid church community, a job I loved, a beautiful family. And I truly believed I was following a path that was best for my faith, even if it meant I had to hide who I truly was," said Matt. "Externally I had it all. But deep down, I was crumbling emotionally and mentally."

In 2017, after much introspection, counseling, and studying, Matt decided to come out and end his marriage. The decision changed almost every aspect of his life: church, work, friendships, and his parenting journey were all deeply affected.

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"Making the decision to pursue divorce was hard. I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I knew that for my kids and for me to fully flourish, I needed to live authentically… Even if that meant changing so much in my life," Matt says.

Once fully out of the closet, Matt began to date slowly. Through a crazy set of circumstances, he was introduced via text to David by a mutual friend. Both of them were coming from very unpleasant dating experiences and not expecting their texts would lead anywhere.

"When we started texting, we were annoyed with dating," said David. "We were venting to each other about others, but the conversation quickly changed to getting to know each other. We quickly realized there was a genuine interest there. After our first in-person date, we knew it was the right fit immediately."

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"After David and I met, I knew he was a keeper," Matt exclaimed. "I wanted the girls to know him eventually, so I first had to tell them I was gay. I'd been setting the stage for awhile, so when I told them, they didn't even bat an eye."

Meeting David went extraordinarily well, also. "The first time the girls met him, our oldest proclaimed that I should marry David," Matt shared.

From day one, the girls have embraced David – first as daddy's friend, and of course later on as one of their dads. "Our girls have shown me ridiculous amounts of love from the very first day we met. For some reason I'll never understand, and without questioning, they opened up their hearts and lives to me, and have never looked back," said David. "I hope they always know that they're loved, they're beautiful, they're capable, and that they are worthy — just the way they are."

Added Matt: "The girls have been resilient in the face of much change and have embraced David as their dad. I mean, what's not to love? He's kind, compassionate, caring, loving. He brings good balance to our lives. I knew when I met David he would be a great dad. And after just a few dates, I knew he was who I wanted to do this crazy life adventure with!"

"It can be messy," Matt said. "We've hit plenty of speed bumps along the way. But we wouldn't change it for anything!"

As their family looks towards the future, they find themselves thankful for their past and its outcome, having just celebrated David and Matt's wedding on April 14, 2019 with their girls, friends, and family there to celebrate.

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Dr. Mark Leondires, founder of the fertility clinic RMA of Connecticut, has helped thousands of LGBTQ people become parents over the years. But in a recent op-ed for The Advocate, he discussed his own path to parenthood as a gay man, and some of the lessons he's learned along the way.

"Similar to most gay men I struggled with the coming out process," Dr. Leondires wrote. "I strongly desired to be a parent. And as a fertility doctor I knew this was possible. What was enlightening was after we had our first child is that in the eyes of my community, I went from being a gay man or gay professional to being a parent just like most of my straight friends."

Dr. Leondires goes on to say his reasons for opening up about his parenting journey is to offer some perspective LGBTQ people who are considering parenthood. "Once you have a family you will have this common bond with the vast majority of our population and something they can relate to — having children," he wrote. "You are no longer someone living this "special" lifestyle, you are a parent on a shared journey."

Being a parent is the "one and only job" held by the majority of the population, he continued. "It is also the only job you can't be fired from."

Understanding this commonality helped Dr. Leondires in his coming out process, he said. "I had to be proud of my family because I want them to be proud of our family," he wrote. "It wasn't about me anymore. The reality is that 5-7% of patients identify as LGBTQ+, and there may be a greater likelihood that your child might be LGBTQ+ because you are. Therefore, you need to be proud of who you are and who your family is, establish and maintain this foundation unconditionally."

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Israeli dads Guy Sadak Shoham and Chai Aviv Shoham were trying to enroll their two-year-old twins in daycare when they were told by a government official that one would need to identify as the "mother" in order to be cleared.

According to Out Magazine, the couple was attempting to apply for financial aid to help pay for the costs of preschool when a government bureaucrat called them to discuss their eligibility.

"I understand that you are both fathers and understand that you both run a shared household, but there is always the one who is more dominant, who is more the mother," the government said, according to an interview on the Israel site Ynet (translated by Out Magazine). "I am just asking for a written statement in your hand which of you is the mother. From the point of view of the work, which works less than the father. Like a normal couple."

The official, apparently, said she was beholden to rules set for in the Ministry of Economy.

"It is mostly sad and a little disturbing," one of the dads told Ynet. "These are concepts that we consider the past. We do not necessarily come up with allegations against this representative, she is ultimately subject to the guidelines and as she said, they are the state. It is also sad that the state's definition of a mother is someone who works less and is at home with the children, and that we must choose which of us meets that definition."

The Ministry of Labor and Social Affairs, fortunately, issued an apology following the incident, and promised to update its protocols. "We will emphasize that the Ministry of Labor and Social Affairs practices explicitly treat all types of families and grant equal rights to all," the ministry wrote in a statement, an apology that was called "insufficient" by Ohad Hizki, the director-general of the National LGBT Task Force.

"The Ministry of Labor and Welfare must sharpen its procedures immediately to prevent recurrence of cases of this kind, as other public organizations have been able to do," he said.

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"Our donors have so much to give," say the promotional materials of a new sperm bank. "But they can't give you HIV."

The new sperm bank, Sperm Positive, launched on World Aids Day this year by three non-profits as a way to fight stigma surrounding HIV and parenthood. For years, scientists have known that those living with an undetectable level of HIV in their blood thanks to antiretroviral treatments can't transmit the virus through sex or childbirth. Yet discrimination and stigma persists.

The sperm bank exists online only, but will connect donors and those seeking donations with fertility banks once a connection is made on their site. Sperm Positive was started by three New Zealand non-profits — Body Positive, the New Zealand Aids Foundation and Positive Women Inc. — who hope the project will help disseminate science-backed education and information about HIV and parenthood.

Already, three HIV positive men have signed up to serve as donors, including Damien Rule-Neal who spoke to the NZ Herald about his reasons for getting involved in the project. "I want people to know life doesn't stop after being diagnosed with HIV and that it is safe to have children if you're on treatment," he told the Herald. "I've experienced a lot of stigma living with HIV, both at work and in my personal life that has come from people being misinformed about the virus."

We applaud the effort all around! To read more about our own efforts to end the stigma surround HIV and parenthood, check out our recent round-up of family profiles, resources, and expert advice that celebrate the experience of gay dads living with HIV here.

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